Archive for May, 2010


May 21st, 2010

For the past 15 years or so I’ve been participating in retreats–12-step retreats as well as others.  This past weekend I went to the “Men’s Inner Journey” retreat held in Simi Valley (Ventura County just over the hill from the San Fernando Valley).  Not only did it have a tremendous amount of impact on me, but I feel that the soul-searching and soul-revelations will stay with me wherever I go.

The focus of the retreat was to cultivate the here and now through meditation, breathwork, music and group ritual.  Although I knew very little about the retreat when I registered, a friend of mine from program gently encouraged me to consider it and so I did.  I feel so grateful that I took the emotional risks to delve into my challenges with love, intimacy and joy and feel more open-hearted as I continue stretching and thawing toward deeper relationships.

If you haven’t given yourself the gift of this type of experience, treat yourself to a retreat and see what gems reveal themselves to you.  It’s always a surprise, but there’s always more to illuminate within.

car trouble

May 10th, 2010

During the weekend I heard a strange noise while driving and decided to get it checked out this morning because a few months ago I had a blowout on the freeway.  Sure enough it turned out to be my two front tires worn down again almost identically to the last time.  After a discussion with my mechanic about the mysterious wear and tear on my new tires, it turned out to be something rather minor but could have been more significant if I hadn’t taken care of the potential hazard.

I’ve always felt like cars and computers are challenges in my life because I know very little about each of them, and they always require a leap of faith when dealing with their repairs.  What I observed this morning was a few things.  I didn’t get another blowout by ignoring the strange noise and asked for help instead.  Asking for help isn’t always easy for me but continues to be a muscle I try and stretch as much as possible.  Secondly, I didn’t collapse into a helpless place–instead, I made some outreach calls to those I trust and finally talked it out and negotiated a compromise regarding the repair.  Lastly, I didn’t let it ruin my day.  It certainly wasn’t how I intended my Monday morning to begin, but it could have been much worse.

I feel rather grateful for the quality problems in my life and now try to see them as opportunities when the challenges arise.